So here I am sitting on the porch having watched a video at least four times that is speaking to where I am this morning.
The group is Hillsong United. The song is actually called "Search my Heart."
The first stanza of the song,
"Search my heart, search my soul, there's nothing else that I want more. Shine your light and show your face. In my Life, Lord have your way.
With all my heart, with all my soul, with all I am, Lord, I will follow you."
This morning the bible app devotional mirrored this video:
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24 NIV)
Earlier this week I was studying this passage:
"Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. (Proverbs 4:23 NIV)"
My understanding of it went from "Don't let anyone in," to "Focus on your heart for true health in life." What I read wasn't about the physical, the mental or the emotional. It was about being strong for the journey, and where you get that strength.
Flash forward to this morning, after a night I struggled emotionally and need to apologize for my actions to those I love, all I could do was go to this song and then remember how cool it was that earlier this week He took me to "the Heart" of the Word and then today automatically took me, in my weak space to eh space only he can work.
Search my heart and search my soul.