I know that it's Friday and you may not be thinking about faith, food and fitness at this time. But I committed to writing on this topic on Fridays, as I walk this journey back to physical health myself. So in a way, it's an accountability check-in with myself at the end of the week. Maybe it will help you too!
First of all - I did yoga today for the first time in what feels like a decade. A 30 minute video I found on You Tube - restorative practice, and it was awesome. Needed it. Boy is it humbling when you realize how tough a downward dog is that you haven't done in ages. It reminds me I did have surgery, but also inspires me because I DID do it!!! Yipee!!! I've also got to say my friend and trainer Michel Edwards kicked my butt this week. 6:15am workouts, up at 5:45. Tough, but worth it and I am SO grateful for Skype because it allows my favorite trainer in the world to meet with me and motivate me a couple times a week. Thank God for technology and a few free-weights in the basement. It pays to get your butt up early to get the workout done. That discipline that can be such a dirty word for so many of us free spirits really gets you more focused (in moderation). Right back to that scripture in Hebrews 12: 11 ESV, "For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it."
As far food, I've been trying to stick to the foods that fuel me and work with my food plan, not feed my emotional need that thinks it needs to be fed. It's not always easy but each day it gets easier. Read an awesome article this week from the Desiring God website that I want to remember. It's by Johnathan Bowers called "America's Most Tolerated Sin."
This one by John Piper is also awesome called, "How Can I Conquer Gluttony." Good points on the boredom that comes in the evening after we leave the dinner table. Points RIGHT to night-eating, where so many of us face a struggle. It's just nice to get Biblical perspectives on overeating and food addiction that aren't so much "how to fix it" but how to see where God wants us to make a choice that's healthier for us than our craving. The other thing I've been reading is the OA 12 and 12 at night which has helped me look at this stuff on a deeper level. Sadly we don't have great meetings here in South Bend on that area of recovery, but I'm hoping to get to an online meeting this week. I share that last piece not because I'm calling myself out or trying to overshare but because we all need to know that there is fellowship available. You are not WEAK if you need other people walking the same journey - especially around FOOD which the world pretends can be controlled by willpower! If you need help, you CAN get it and since it's National Eating Disorder Awareness week still, I'll just make a plug for the fellowship. Here's the link for OA meetings and literature.
Personally, I know this is a long haul ahead, that I can't do alone. So instead of obsessing about the food or a workout or a weigh-in, I focus on God. I focus on what he's doing inside me, and letting the outside take care of itself. It's all about transformation that comes from the inside out, and at the deepest place can only be done with God.
On another note, it's sunny outside. The birds are chirping out my window and I am excited for Spring. I haven't run in so long, and if I think about it too much it can defeat me for the race we're going to run this June. But all you can do is get out there when you can. Tomorrow, my accountability buddy (hubs) and I are going to hit the pavement and I'm really looking forward to some sun and time on the pavement, probably laughing about how out of shape and old we are....
I hope you have an awesome weekend everyone. See you next week.